We all live only once...

i look at the photos of her and him.
and somehow i smile..

coz she's happy.
happier than i ever could haf made her in my entire life.

its been a long time since i've updated properly...

people usually write down what they feel, or what they have been experiencing, etc. in their blog.
thinking back now on the past few weks, i dont think i've been experiencing much... nor doing much...
the whole regular routine of waking up, not wanting to go to school, eventually going to school, finishing school, going home, and watchin tv, telling myself to study (but not studying)...
the whole routine repeats itself like continuously...

or the weekend routine, whereby i wake up late at 1pm, bathe, and prepare to teach music, den i come home, feel lazy, and start bumming around again...

sometimes its about finding a fresh new perspective of life i guess...

end yr exams are supposedly arriving.
at a loss coz i dont realli noe wad to study...

gonna have plans to study wiv michael in the library till 10pm everyday...
since i'm always online and distracted when i'm home anyway...
been a long time since i've been to town..
or a long time since i stayed out late till 11 plus at night before going home...
life's becoming a routine.
and i guess i'm one who seeks changes...

meanwhile...
i'm off to teach again...

btw, down to philosophy.
i mean. prof holbo is nice and stuffs. so is my tutor in school
but seriously, whats wrong with this subject? philosophers should just all burn and die.. :S

there's this memory that i desperately want to hold on to.
but the tighter i hold on to it,
the faster it seem to slip away.

i dont expect anything back in return.

i'll keep u in my prayers...
after all thats all i can do..

deadlines running close
loads of assignments
semester tests, oral tests, end yr tests.

i just cant wait for all this to end.
maybe then i'll get my life back...

the feeling of emptiness when night falls. the concept of lying down in bed and having your mind run through a series of events that has happened in ur life before, and then not being able to sleep.

the feeling of being judged in everything you do. something you say, the way you behave, or the way you sing, the way you carry yourself, etc.

i'll keep you in my prayers.