We all live only once...

i'm off to shanghai
wil be back on saturday, 31st may :) 1130pm.

guitar heroes with a close friend is fun...

and its just beautiful to haf frenships with no fears or obligations whatsoever...

:D



thanks HL!

its time to grow up..
watchin made of honour yesterday made me realise that one thing that has been eluding me all this while...

i've said this umptheen times... got into r'ships thinking it will last yadah yadah... but it has never ended de way i picture it to be initially...

as much as i'm not really all ready to settle down and stuff,
but its time i sit down and tell myself.

that the next girl i meet, will be the girl i would want to marry...

judge my personality only if you know who i am,
only if you ever attempted to be my friend,

not when u hear things abt me..
and draw conclusions from how my complicated love life is like...

zouk was fantastic...
it wasn't the club, nor the music.
but the company...
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soccer was fantastic too.
played from 615 - 815pm n managed to score a couple of goals...
the most memorable being the one when i faked shot the conceited goalkeeper who was taunting shoot..

crazy antics.
ryan eugene and i decided to go down to east coast to play another round of soccer at 11pm...
scored a lot of goals!! i'm seriously surprised at my form.... nutmegged two defenders and struck a shot straight into the top corner from the side!....

soccer again proved to be like my downfall.
sprained ankle. out for definitely one week or more.
it hurt so much i felt tears...
i hardly could walk and the pain only subsided after applying ice on it....
reminded me of qing! called her immediately coz she sprained her ankle at MOS the last time...

aniwae...
i've been so busy i hardly haf time to sit down and properly check my mail or watch television....

changi airport wiv huilin huiqing and mike to send mike off...

and den...
finally some free time...
after such a long period of time..

did a recording recently...
rihanna's under my umbrella..
check out my imeem.. haha...
tryin to record my beatboxing into it too... but still quite bad...

zouk tmr!
cant wait.. :D

turnout for soccer today was great.
what felt best was the chance to continue scoring after that fantastic outing at bukit batok court...

took some time to get used to the small-ness of the court again... and to adapt to new teammates because ryan detong and i hardly play together with junhao and his friend... but when we finally got our rhythm, we won 3 consecutive games... although we eventually started losing... but what felt good was being able to score the winner in 4 games... not as fruitful as before, but 4 goals for me was once again one of my better outings compared to the past...!

had a fun bet with eugene..
dere's sth abt him that makes me feel like niao-ing him all the time...
we were supposed to compete like who scored more goals or sth.... so at the end of the 2nd last game, he scored 1, and i scored 4...
but in the last game when we were in de same team, he single handedly scored all 3 goals to end off the game.. putting his tally like on equal ground as me la..

sunday soccer details aside, i really think its one of the activities that are keeping us guys together... altitude... together with ppl like jav, marv, james.... which is a fantastic thing bcoz as we grow older in future we would still want to be keepin in touch wiv each other...

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haven had enough sleep since de end of exams...
MOS on the first night, followed by going out with qing on the second afternoon to see a doctor, and then meeting mike to meet his friends who are gg to shanghai with us at night, reached home at ard 1130pm, den i went out again for supper.... nxt morning i had to wake up at 9am to teach in music garage... taught from 10-4pm... and den i treated my advanced keyboard class to late lunch.. before rushing off to meet the guys to celebrate mike's and marv's bdae.... den dey came over, played winning 11 till past midnight... den mike and i went out to eat supper with huiqing, and den i slept at 4am.. woke up at 9am for soccer today.. blahblahblah~

burnt out.. exhausted...
would like to enjoy a free day soon...
but meanwhile, i have driving lessons tmr, followed by shopping with mike, and den meeting huiqing and huilin for a movie....

ah.. in a way, i absolutely love the feeling of liberation...
the feeling of being able to do anything i want, anytime, anyhow, everytime.

meanwhile,
shanghai in 2 wks...

i'm glad i found you..
but at the same time,
it may not be the best thing that can happen to me now.

i'm incoherent.
but whatever it is, i'm sincere.
and i know what i am thinking.
i just need to know what to do.

party here i come.
exam results can just eat itself.

things to do:
catch up with friends i haven been talking to
kbox
ice skating
soccer
gym
more movies
zouk MOS
ikea
write more songs
prepare for shanghai trip
eat sushi buffet
musicgarage

ah. i just love the feeling of liberation.

came across a huge loads of songs i recorded like 6 to 7 years back when i was younger in my old computer hard drive...

crazy how de songs i wrote about love was so simple and naive...
phrases like...
"wo yao zuo ni de wei yi"
"i love you with my heart, and soul"
"love is forever cause there's you and me"
yah yah yah...

surprising how my diction sounds better in the past as well....
and memories of singing with altitude floated back when i heard our old horrendous sounding mp3s...
not forgetting the mp3s of the double first prize i won in pjc talentime - both solo and group (one of my only times i joined a solo competition and had the guts to song)

okae. its ssa exams tmr. i shld be studying
but i cant sleep.
so many things running thru my mind...
sometimes i do hope that we could all be young and like kids again... then maybe i'll reshape the way i grew up.. and den i'll learn to treasure relatonships and friendships better than how i am handling things now...

i'm quite an ass actually... and its sad how i know, but i cant do anything to change the fact that i've alwys been an ass since i started my 3rd r'ship.

other than going to shanghai, i still want to go somewhere else..

maybe bangkok... perth... taiwan.. hongkong... just somewhere to enjoy during the 3 months holiday before i face hectic university life again..

and on top of tt... i still have so much to look forward to... music with jonathan... plans with mg to make more money performing, etc. writing songs.. blahblah...

anyway. so far there's me and another friend...
we're lookin for another girl and guy to go overseas too! or just anybody lah....... anyone wants to go? :P we are only young once... make more friends! :P

happy labour day everyone...
the day started off with eugene niao-ing me for not appearing for soccer, so because i felt bad, i climbed out of bed to go play soccer with the guys..

so many teams dere when i appeared so i got a bit sian diao bcoz usually when there are many teams u dont get to play a lot.... but what made my day was how my team consisting of james, felix, erry, me, marvin and yixuan single handedly beat every single team there consecutively...

and the most wonderful thing is how its one of the rare occasions whereby i actually scored 6 goals in 4 games... and even dribbling past opponents, etc..

maybe its the better diet plan, gym and the weight i've lost over the past few days because of the exam stress thats making me slightly more balanced and light-footed when i dribble and shoot...
but whatever it is... soccer was fun.... great teammates, great morale, but really bad weather...
seriously shld haf put on sunblock or sth.. coz after coming back my face feels flushed and like there's a sudden pimple breakout... urghs...

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james michael me and eugene sat down and had a talk about our pasts after soccer...
come to think about it, it has been like.... 6 to 7 years since we were last in rvhs together?... all the crazy things we would do... going to school super early just to walk around the corridor and past by the class of the girl you have a crush on, singing and dancing to backstreet boys during talentime, acting in dramas when we were in English LDDS (literary debating and drama society)
AH HAH.. i bet many of you dont even know i can act or debate... coz i look like some cheena ah beng =p

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on a side note, its 6pm now and time for me to hit my books.
one week exactly from now, i will be celebrating the end of my exams..... n thats something i really look forward to (even though right now, the way i'm going out, it seems like i dont even have exams anymore)

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a random thought came across my mind last night...

one important factor in life that keeps you going is your ambition and dream.
i have dreams of becoming a musician, a singer, songwriter, or at least a famous music producer and vocal teacher...

i have dreams of starting my own mini business in future, and eventually upgrading from a mini stall all the way to a bigger cafe with nice soothing romantic live music and a disco dance floor for couples to slow waltz their way after dinner....

i have dreams of forming an invincible acapella group and get invitations to tour around the world...

i have dreams of settling down and getting married to that one girl whom im willing to give up everything for... just because i am just crazily and madly in love with her.

all these dreams keep me looking forward to the future...
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strange connections...

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watched ironman today...
yes i know... my exams aren't over. but i still found myself not resisting the temptation of getting out of house...
great company... and absolutely fantastic movie..
watched the midnight show at westmall with huiqing huiling and mike...
i was really impressed by the story line and the humour...
and the parallels with other superhero stories, and witty conversations...

cant wait for the sequel...

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