We all live only once...

Some ppl have been asking me how this new singer from Butterfly music looks like.... Here's her photo...

Jin Sha....
(if i'm not wrong her name's kym)

gee.. she's realli very swt looking....

Went to ZPOP's concert wiv DS, my cousin and Sel... Urgh. let me tell u. Singaporean fans are so so so so so so cold... Nobody was screaming, even got shouted at by some aunties to "SIT DOWN" and don block their views... (I mean hello... who sits on de floor at a concert?!?!?) Aniwae. JJ Lin Jun Jie rocks... n his xiao shi mei Jing Sha is so so so so so sweet looking? haha... n not forgettin she has a damn gd voice! Ah yup..

Back's still hurting. Cant sit down in front of my computer for more than 30 mins.... have to constantly move around to prevent de pain frm appearing...

Wondering if i should go to SAF MDC. I'm so interested in music and i certainly rather spend de rest of my 1.5 years in army doin sth i like rather than sittin down around being a clerk or driving a car... :

Gonna learn driving soon.. Once i confirm details of my new posting, i would go arrange for my driving lessons. Its gonna be so cool if i haf a license...

Arh.. feel like goin to kbox all of a sudden....

(Lazerus, Left) (Rocher, Right)

its confirmed
mri scan showed i haf a slipped disc

fortunately, dere's still a little bit of tissues left between my bones or sth..
so i just need physio therapy
if it worsens i need to go for an op though..

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learnin to try to control my emotoins lately..
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my desktop exploded.
so now i'm usin my laptop
hahz... :

i'm out of course officially frm pioneers course..
my slipped disc n sprained ankle is making me realli frustrated everyday...

had lots to do
lots of admin work. pasting. ticking. marking. answering de fone. photocopying, etc.
yes. mebbe ppl think dat sittin in de office is slack
but 1) time passes realli slowly. i haf too much time to think abt her... abt my life.. abt my frens.
2) i'm not gettin enuf sleep... dont know why i feel so confused lately..

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went out todae for kbox. met up wiv eugene, hsin, jamie, mag..
den me eug hsin n jamie went suntec to eat. den esplanade roof terrace to plae go back jump..
hahax..
think it was damn funny la..
until we got too tired in de end...

nv realised i could haf fun wiv dem.. haha.. k box, pool, etc.
n i think wan hsin's damn funny... dunno wads so funny though..

gonna go back camp tmr after my 1 wk plus of rest...

crossin my fingers to hope
1) i will not further hurt my ankle
and
2) my slipped disc isn't as serious as it may end up being... i don wanna end up havin to undergo an operation..

hope admin work in de office wun be that bad..
perhaps i will haf more time to read or sth
hope i wun be too bored also..
urghx...

wish me luck...

watched war of de worlds yesterday at cine..
hahaz.. had quite loads of fun...
me and jr.hsin was feelin bored la.. (coz we haven gone out together b4 n had nth to say)
so i suggested dis game
walkin into sembawang music... den i'll gif a singer's name like "elvis"
den we will see who finds his cd first... :S

hahaz... childish but quite fun.. though it got quite draggy at de end...
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aniwae. haven been to town for quite a long time...
met up wiv jiahui mary ann n cam for a while..

my ankle hurts. urgh
limpin around like sum retard..
wonder how i'm goin to walk around in camp if my ankle still hurts
doc says it shld heal by a wk...
so lets just see...
prolonged taking of my painkillers will apparently cause kidney failure.. :
sighx

this day once meant sth to me...
it still does actualli.

are dreams realli a representation of ur desires?
(literary thinking sets in)

its 1252pm, youth day
and.

i miss you.

but yet i don't know how to let u know..

gosh. like wad i learnt in literature.. mebbe this is de feeling of repression....
wanting to say sth but not being able to..

at least i haf my blog.

was talkin to brianna yesterday...
den we both realised we haf de same problem
we haf loads of ppl online on our msn.
but as we scroll down, we dont haf de urge to msg ani1 of dem...
bcuz 1) u dun wanna bother them by ur problems
or 2) u noe they simply wont care.

i rather haf a small group of close knitted frens
than a huge grp of acquaintances...

the only reason why my heart is still beating is bcoz its still waiting and hoping you would come.

recordin wiv yinky n her jie in de afternoon.
den kbox wiv clement in de evening all de way till now.

sufferin frm a suspected slipped disc.
my hip hurts when i make sudden twisting movements...
n i may go for an operation nxt wk..
kinda scary come to think abt it..
i've never undergone an operation in my life (i think)

she sent mi a msg at 4am todae..
mebbe she had that sixth sense that i wun be able to sleep unless i noe she's safely home...
coz i cldn't sleep.

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sigh.
i feel foolish at times...
dont ask me why
i just do.

to end off..
i wanna forget you. thats what i keep saying. but no, i miss you.