We all live only once...

haf been roving around shows wiv de 4 other guys in vocal ensemble..
dey haf been performing at pri schs n stuff...

looks fun indeed...
haha, though i will be looking forward more to secondary schools instead...

my first performance will be after 19th sept...
21st sept at RVHS...
my first performance! n it will be in RV!.. how special..

lets just hope i'll be able to learn de songs in time..

singing rocks.... just been feelin uncomfortable though... singing wiv a group that has bonded so much..
darn, i do miss altitude... michael, ryan, eugene, detong... we may not be de best vocal group.. but we r so close knitted... so comfortable wiv each other...
still, i'm gonna try to adapt to de vocal ensemble guys... Lucas, David, Jonathan and Kenny... had quite a gd laugh wiv dem todae...

go on and phunk with my heart.
5am now.
i need more cough mixture. lots more.


composed a song in my semi-conscious state.
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so many questions i wanna ask
so many answers, left unsaid
you wear a mask
a shield and layers of protection.
i'm sick of peeling them
one by one...

chorus:
dont play with my heart
dont phunk with my feelings
you left me out here. in the cold
its never too late
to take back those words you said
but no..
you don't care at all..

bridge:
over and over again
u give me a complicated puzzle
over and over again
its enough...

chorus:
dont play with my heart
dont phunk with my feelings
don't leave me out here, in the cold
maybe its too late
to take back those words u said
but girl
least i had u before.

i'm in mdc at last..
finally get to sing... do sth i love n enjoy..

i live to sing..
haha, its a plus point dat i'm in an acapella grp...

gonna learn new things manz.. de ppl dere r pro.. =p
haha, i'm too used to giving instructions.. so it feels weird when ppl correct me
but oh well, i live to improve

hahx.. mm... just don make me dance..
keep in vocal ensemble.

haf weird foreboding feelings...

de kinda feeling u get before u died or sth..


wad if...
i contracted sum incurable disease like cancer or something...
it doesnt help that lately i have been feelin weak, sickish, dizzy-ish, etc...
feel as though my body's breaking down..
yet i'm not exactly sufferin from a very bad flu..
but de kind of sympthoms i'm gettin are kinda horrible...

sigh..
if i died...

my last day in jurong camp was yesterday...
gonna be posted to nee soon
(Which means longer travelling hours, etc.)

but i'm gonna do sth i enjoy..
gonna join MDC...

haha.. mixed reactions todae frm my sgts...
found out that sgt Rizal wanted to join MDC too....

Rizal: Wah, so lucky, so slack, i wanted to go there last time, but de ppl dint pass my auditions

oh well, down wiv flu now. lets hope i'll enjoy myself over there at nee soon

haha..
i suddenli haf that sudden aspiration again..
to be a superstar...

i still remember... when i was young.. afew yrs back..
de kind of aspirations i had
de kind of hope i had for altitude..
for myself...
for my songwriting "career"...

.... den as i grow older, i realise that my dreams are slowly fading....
cuz i'm losing de... hope....

gee...
i miss singing.... :

but its time i snap back to reality...

i'm goin to haf to haf proper dreams if i wanna haf a gd future...
i need to start earning money..

ah sigh, as we grow old, we haf more to worry abt..
thats when our childish childhood dreams start to fade and falter..

not 2nd best. but the best.

why are u doing this...
why r u saying this...

just when i think things will settle down smoothly for me,
i find myself facing another bout of problems.

manchester united won... won some money frm dat game..

bought my logitech playgear.
my psp looks more protected now..

just heard that going to MDC may mean that i'm gonna spend lots of time rehearsing n stuffs...
dillemma..
shld i choose a slack 8 to 5 job in jurong camp. or a rather uncertain working hour job in mdc... apparently i may onli reach home at midnight at times..

sigh.
not like i haf a choice.

i don haf a choice for anything.
i constantly find myself waiting for others to make a choice.
fear..

just when i think things will settle down smoothly for me,
i find myself facing another bout of problems.

manchester united won... won some money frm dat game..

bought my logitech playgear.
my psp looks more protected now..

just heard that going to MDC may mean that i'm gonna spend lots of time rehearsing n stuffs...
dillemma..
shld i choose a slack 8 to 5 job in jurong camp. or a rather uncertain working hour job in mdc... apparently i may onli reach home at midnight at times..

sigh.
not like i haf a choice.

i don haf a choice for anything.
i constantly find myself waiting for others to make a choice.
fear..

the english premiereship is back!
hahax. how exciting...

man u vs everton...
first time i'm gonna bet for a long long time

and ah ha, i got my psp...
bought ridge racers and nba street showdown..
weird though.. wonder wad made me buy de nba game... its so not me...
i dont even plae basketball..

niwaez... lets wish manchester united all de bez! :)

everything seems to be going smooth and in place for me =)

you think u love me
mebbe u dont
mebbe i'm just a fool

why else would u not agree to..... it...

5 reasons why u wouldn't want
5 reasons why u would.

u didnt even gif mi a single reason why u would

my heart's not a toy..
its alive.

do you love me or do you not?
u say u do, but yet u dont seem like u do..

my heart is not fit for such stuffs.

to that person out there:

A few yrs back, u tried to kiss me. to put it in a more straightforward manner, you forced yourself on me.
I pushed u away. bcoz i was attached. n bcoz i treated u as a fren n wasnt attracted to u in that sense.

Little did i know that all these while, u've been spreading false accounts abt me taking advantage of u in a cinema
Three points to note:
1) I never brought u to a cinema
2) I never liked you.
3) I treated u as a fren, n i would never take advantage of sum1 like that

I regret to inform you that that
1) In order to protect your ego, or whatsoever, you have indirectly caused great damage to my reputation. By telling false stories to my then girlfriends, you have also broke the trust they ever had in me.

I chose not to tell anyone about this initially because i treated u as a fren and i wanted to protect ur reputation.

However, spreading false rumours abt me touching you in a cinema is a despicable act.
I, would never resort to such inhuman acts.
As a result, I have become an unwilling victim. I never realised that people who didnt know me in person had that impression that i'm such a downright disgusting person.

I may be a failure in dealing wiv r'ships, i may haf hurt mani ppl in de process. But, i would never be such a horny bastard..

Please look into the mirror first.
Before spreading rumours that are an insult to my character, and person on a whole.
In a more direct manner, 1) there's nothing for mi to take advantage of you of. 2) if i were to ever take advantage of someone, i would choose someone of higher standards.

This has made me realised.
That rumours can change ppl's impression on others.
Over these yrs, i never realised that people haf been hearing such stories about me.

whatever, screw it.
screw you
to think that all these yrs i still talked to u as a fren. never knowing u were backstabbing me wiv stories like this.

feelin lethargic sumhow...
almost as though i'm totally drained.. but yet i still refuse to go n sleep..

saw brianna at town todae. n yesterday.

ah. national dae's coming...
my camp is involved in de actual day. but i'm not sure if i can actualli participate considering my medical problem

mebbe de lack of exercise is causing me this lethargy
i don even haf strength to msg my frens animore.

gonna be goin to SAFTI for my first day tomorrow..
wonder how it will be like..
n whether i would be able to adapt..

sigh..
crosses fingers...

its 3am and i still cant sleep!! :