We all live only once...

ouch.
spent $120 todae
i'm seriously broke...

u wouldn't do things to hurt the ppl u love.
u wldn't do things to ruin things that u treasure.

had two days of performance at toa payoh hub... mindef pride day...
performing was fun... probably not when u're in a shitty mood...
tried my best to be high. tried to smile.
yes, there's something at the back of my mind... n it sux...
still.. show has to be done i guess..

3 shows a day on saturday n 3 shows on sunday...
at the end of the whole day.. u just dont feel like moving at all..

not to forget, de journey frm toa payoh to my house takes a total of 1:18:20... haha...according to my stopwatch.

so yea... i need some recuperation.
n a hair cut.

buddy..
where are u when i need u..

i'm back. 5pm on a thursday.
but i'm desperately trying to escape.

i thought i found meaning to life.
now its all gone.
n whats left of me
soul-less
expression-less
pain-less.

i've lost my senses
i'm numb.

2am .

i'm cold.

if there's one thing in this world that can break my heart.
thats...
knowing what a fool i have been..

i dont deserve any happiness do i?

there's one type of ppl i hate...

LIARS

davinci code's kind of overhyped.. yet it left me thinking quite a lot abt religion..
watched it last night at westmall.

performance at CDANS today...
totally loved tong hua today... by far like my best projection n i think i hit an all time high note or something when i did that run i never thought i would do on stage with tong hua..
de place was so noisy i thought i shld just try a jj moment....

ya.. bowled todae... won a drink.... my score sux though..

its gonna be an irritatingly long weekend this week..
so busy n stuffs.....
will be performing at Pride Day.. toa payoh hub on sat n sun.. its open to public.. so sms me if u would be free to watch or sth? :)

sometimes i think i shld just wash my hands off everything
n not care abt anything that happens around me.
mebbe if i minded my own business
den i wldn't be feelin so irritated now....

i'm tired...
i hardly feel like i've had enough rest...
i'm mentally drained..
n i haf no idea wad i can do anymore..
this is slippin further and further away
faster and faster.
and i feel like i dont have a grip on things....

maybe ... just maybe... i shld start growing up.....

reminiscence of the past..

everyone around me seem to be pissing mi off lately..
n nxt wk's gonna be a damn long week..
performance on wed, fri, sat, sun.. till late night..
gosh.
i wonder how i'm gonna survive..

went clubbing this wk wiv ryan n geri....... n ryan's frens (whom i dont know at all..) haha.....
felt so super extra at first la..
ryan and geri were like totally into each other....
den my fren got stuck outside zouk coz her fren cldn't come in coz she wore shorts..
so i was like dancing alone or sth..
luckily it wasn't that bad later...

took leave on thurs.. went paya lebar on thurs to kaijoo optics... was lookin for another spectacles frame so i can change my lenses frm de white frame to another one as and when i wish... den went jec for a walk... been such a long time since i went there..

friday.... swensens.. mahjong..

saturday.. sucked.
n its sunday now. n it feels like its gonna suck too..

listening to my own song now.... jiu rang wo....
relaised that there are abt 90 downloads on the site.... which means 90 ppl haf my song in their computers now!
duhx =pPp
gonna start on a 2nd draft soon enuf when i recover frm my blocked nose.

here's a toast to a boring n dull sunday.

i wrote this for no particular person. with no particular relation to anything..

was runnin thru ideas of writing a song... n instead of writing songs abt love love and love.... loving sum1, blahblahblah~... why not try sth different...

why not try writing abt this guy/girl who loves someone.... but is willing to stand there and just watch that guy/girl fall for sum1 else...

this is my song...
http://www.savefile.com/files.php?fid=7684240

do download it and let me noe how it is.. =) n yes, i know my pronunciation sux.. but i'm reali tryin my best.... but i'm sure u can make out de lyrics sumhow... if u listen carefully...again n again n again =)

presenting.... jiu rang wo...

went ijc and yjc to perform in the last weeks...
the performances were really enjoyable to me...

went shopping for GROCERIES at imm todae wiv detz n eugene..
had loads of fun manz..
tell u.. its so funny seeing a guy dressed in ARMY UNIFORM SMART 4 pushing a trolley around..
i have a video of detz picking prawns and chicken wings in his smart 4...haha.. which i plan to upload soon.. =pPp

i think this weekend will pass rather quickly.. i hardly have time to breathe manz..
n can u believe it..
i actualli lost 60 bucks in mahjong...! haha... frm start to end i onli won like one round.. DUHX...

i'm more that meets the eye.

can someone tell me why i always feel like
everyone around me is lying.

i was kept in the dark once...
it cant be that traumatizing can it?....