We all live only once...

went to church wiv mum dad and lydia todae..
been goin thru a rather rocky period of time lately, so i thought the church sermon might teach me certain values in life...
thanks dearie for accompanying me to church even though u had ur own church to go to...

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learnt something today that made lots of sense...

We must learn to be thankful or we become bitter. Life springs too many surprises on us that can cause us to become bitter. A thankful heart turns us from anger and bitterness to appreciation. Try it with someone when you get angry about something he or she has done.

The man who got robbed was thankful cause he did not lose much. he still had his life. and he was thankful because he was robbed, and wasn't the robber.

When you quarrel with your loved one, learn to be thankful. You get to quarrel because you're still alive, and because you have someone out there who's willing to work things out with you.

When your shirt becomes tight and you think u're putting on weight, be thankful that you have enough to eat (or rather, more than enough)

When your friend behind you sing his or her lungs out and sound grossly tune-less, learn to be thankful that you are still able to hear.

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I'm thankful i have friends who listen to me, and who appreciates me
A girlfriend who loves me.
A happy and complete family.
A talent in singing, something that i find joy in when i'm on stage.
A nice and cosy room

And as year 2006 comes to an end, i'm thankful that i've got to learn alot over the years in MDC. and that despite not studying much, i'm thankful i'm going to enter university. =)

okae.. this is so not me. i rarely talk abt deep stuffs.. =p but yeps..
happi new yr peeps! =)

here is the key to my heart...
please dont lose it...

de only time i took part in an original composition was when i was in pioneer jc..
and even so, i onli did it coz mi and eugene wanted to submit an entry each..

was visiting the talentquest and impresario website and i realised that there's an original composition category, which year in year out i have thought of joining, but i end up just keeping my songs on my blog....

i may need some help though..
if i finally decide to submit a composition..
u see that toolbar at the side of my blog? which original song shld i submit?

coz i dont seem to be pleased wiv ani of dem.. :s

thanks in advance =)

dint manage to completely update my xmas eve...
had sizzlers with the guys yesterday....javin james ryan eugene mike and me...
food was rather good.. but oily..
n it was rather expensive too..around 40 per person...
at the end of de whole meal i was like bloated and i felt like puking...
(n i dint even eat a lot... i dint even eat ice cream or dessert like the rest)
had fun catching up wiv everyone...

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spent christmas day today at home initially...was like busy lazing around and playing games...
den went on to jurong point to watch golden flower with lydia...

crowd was horrible... i usually go there to purchase tickets 20 mins before de show..
today, it was impossible.. de queue was like 30 mins or sth...
n we ended up having to watch the 7pm show instead of the 455pm show..


played pool to kill time...which was hilarious actually
i was like pocketing all the difficult balls, placing my white cue ball at de right places,
trying to win my side of the bet...
but for THREE consecutive games,
i ended up losing the bet and i pocketed the black ball like continuously...
got to start playing pool again.. thought it was pretty fun =)
or mebbe it was just the company... :)

had long john's grill... which tasted horrible..
den had roadside ice cream before going home...

all in all, a happy christmas =)
n.. many more to come ...

anyway... i'm happy today...
n i happened to feel like taking a picture of myself.. to check how happi i was..
n dis was what i got =)...

merry christmas everyone...
season greetings..

had a great christmas eve dinner wiv the guys...
before meeting lydia and goin to church wiv my parents n relatives...

haven been back at WEFC for ages. saw a few familiar faces...
a few schoolmates in RV and PJ....
yeps..tts abt all..

i feel like i'm nobody...
really...

i think everywhere's like flooding...
actualli...
i feel like running in the rain now...
looks fun...

anione has dat same feeling? blehs..

gloomy weather. been raining like nonstop for de whole day or sth..

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sufferin frm like some serious mood swings..
has it ever happened to u?
like.. .all of a sudden, u haf nothing to say, or u realise that u haf suddenli become a man of few words...
its like tt.. i've been talking like tt (or rather, finding it hard to talk to) everyone.. :s

looks like the additional jogging and soccer in australia has done be good..
played soccer wiv de guys today...
had a wonderful game...
wonderful team.. eugene was on fire.. saving every impossible shot...
javin was everywhere...
michael too, and felix...
beat this bunch of international school guys.
n i managed to score a couple of goals todae...my favourite being the left foot curler into the bottom corner...

been a long time since i had such fun...
coz the last wk i came back i barely lasted 15 mins and i had a stubbed toe...

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christmas's coming..
havent done ani christmas shopping..
den come to think abt it, i dont buy christmas gifts for ani1 usually..
but christmas is all abt giving actualli..
so i shall probably go down to shop later or sth.. ani1 wanna come along?

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i'm in ord mood. don feel like doin aniting in camp.
i dont wanna go back on mon tues.. so i'm goin to find a reason for tt...
but i have stupid shows on tues and thurs... n i realli don wanna sing animore...:|

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which reminds me..
i need to plan a future for my education
wont want to be rendered useless or good-for-nothing nxt time
still remember wad sum1 said to me...
"u haf to study hard john, to feed your family in future..."
so i guess taking the "music" route in my education would probably be a little too hasty and dangerous unless i haf another back up degree... :|

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christmas this yr is gonna be borin...
n so is the nxt few days before christmas.
i need to spice up my life.. instead of just sitting down in front of this irritating computer and playing computer games from day to night...

de javu's a pretty nice movie..watched it todae at cine...
nice twist at the end...
if we could go back in time to change something, what would we do?

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i love cooking for, and cooking with the one i love.
and bailey's mint chocolate is actually quite nice...
though i still prefer vodka..

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ppl say i'm a thinker.
pessimistic
and a worrier
maybe they're right..

cant wait to plan a holiday...

parents r out now for supper...
n de house's realli quiet..

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felt a little hurt just now
but i'm sure its just a passing feeling...

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gone for a week.

absence would make my heart grow fonder...

i almost lost my ring today...
n that had a super big impact on me..
i was so affected i frantically searched for it till i was almost in tears...

cld feel de desperation n tt disappointment within myself for losing de ring..

i hate de feeling of losing something that significant..
coz it feels like i'm losing that significant one indirectly..

thank gdness..
i found it..

and thank God i found you...

it feels different somehow.








cough mixture's making mi hallucinate..
or rather, i feel like i'm floating.
yesterday was a realli bad day. my worst ever in australia
and i'm not sure if today would be ani better..






and i just feel like cryin..

the new cough syrup makes me feel like i'm on drugs

maybe thats what i should do now.
drink
n sleep.

all i need to do

is to hear the sound of your voice

and i feel the warmth that we've shared

and the love that has always been there.

this is gettin dumb
i'm posting sth every minute or wad.

i love u dear.

n i want and know that things will work out fine =)
coz
since de day i got to know u better
i had this feeling that we're made for each other.

why do i feel exceptionally lost today.

cld be bcoz i'm far far away
frm the place i wanna be right now?

the bear smells nice..

maybe i shld go for some self improvement classes or sth.

suddenli the words of this ex gf rings in my head:
you love yourself more than you love others.
if you think u're nice, and if ur friends say u are, forget it, they are lying to u.

i'm such a lousy lover.

i would kill for a packet of antibiotics to ease de swelling off my tonsils.
i sound hoarse
and i still cant sing

n no pharmacy is wiling to sell me antibioitics here.

argh
someone just kill me.

if i'm worried. it means i care isn't it?

i mean.
would you rather i dint care at all?

maybe things aren't as easy as i thought they would be

sometimes love just ain't enough.