I'll rather spend bad times with you, than good times without you.
english midyrs are over...
was super nervous somehow for 3c1.. was tellin cousin how it feels weird that i'm not taking the exam but i'm feeling the tension..
i guess this is part n parcel of being a "teacher"...
and whats worse, i'm just a relief teacher..
can u imagine how bad it will be if i'm a real teacher in future?
went round tryin to wish my students best of luck..
glad most of dem were quite positive abt it...
----
which reminds me.. i'm leavin ctss in a week..
and i actualy wonder... if i reali would like to leave... :|
arh well.. i dont haf a choice do i.. mrs chua's coming back.....
----
haven't been updating lately
n i duno why..
i havent been eating lately too
nor sleeping well lately..
dont even remember when was the last time i had more than 5 hours of sleep until LAST NIGHT!.. i actualli dozed off without brushing my teeth frm 10pm all de way till 10am... hahz..
----
somehow i'm feelim miserable..
why am i constantly brought to heaven
onli to fall flat into hell.
rollercoaster emotions.
i haven't been blogging a lot...
yes i know... haven had the patience, nor motivation, inspiration, or mood to blog lately...
been feeling rather down lately...
as if life's rather stagnant...
what i needed as perhaps a new lease of life...
---
started my new lease of life in clementi town sec as a relief teacher...
has been 2 days of teaching already...
adapting was a problem initially, but thank gdness my cousin's there teaching too...
classes have been rather bad.. or more like a culture shock for me...
i'm too used to the RVHS PJC kind of student atmosphere... so being scolded vulgarities at by my student left me kind of stumped during my first day...
but i guess i'm learning... learning and trying to draw a line between being too friendly and too irritatingly strict...
i mean.. all i want is for my students to enjoy lessons, enjoy studying.. n complete their work.. .thats all...
but i guess sometimes you just get taken advantage of, especially if you are a young teacher without any experience in controlling large classes...
well... had my first lesson with 3C1 and 5C2 today (the two classes i would regularly be teaching for the next 3 wks)... would say they were rather fun to teach.. BUT... they dont really seem interested in work.... more like interested in talking and having fun instead...
maybe i just have a face that says "i'm friendly so you can take advantage of my friendliness"... i have students like calling me john instead of mr khoo... etc.etc...
well, these 2 days are making mi reconsider my application to NIE as a teacher though.. i have a place at NUS FASS as well.. and i guess i've got to repriorities and re-align my target in life before really deciding...
meanwhile... wish me luck in school..
------
sometimes all i have is a song to listen to...
http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/printfriendly/0,4139,105133,00.html
now i know why my hair ended up like... that
haha.. =pPp
i'm not superman.
i have feelings too.
i cry too.
beneath my laughter lies a troubled soul.
beneath my smiles lie a bucket of tears.
why is it happening again?
